I am newly inspired to cook and eat only healthy things but am foiled because I can't find my kitchen. I have a sink and an electric burner, but where did the rest of it go? Mystery of mysteries. Not that the rice cooker isn't a mighty handy tool and I have been diligent about preparing bento. But I want to make a real dinner... I also hate cooking alone, unless I am cooking for other people. But I want to host a party, though I can't have party numbers in here. I want to have someone over for coffee and eat German bread and French cheese, though I can't find the various elements necessary for that quotidian day dream. And I mean strong cheese. Not the watered down, over-priced cheese you find here. I have never tasted a blue cheese with less blue. And I want to hop over to New York for a day. It's very important when living in a foreign country to torture yourself from time to time by dreaming about the things you don't have. It keeps the senses sharp.
Currently, I am going through emotional overload and terribly happy and this morning at work I say to myself aloud, "Why am I in such a good mood?" Then after the deep introspection of a few seconds I can think of no good reason and decide to try to drop the issue in my mind for fear that the bubble should burst with too much probing.
I know the reasons, but some are too small and meaningless to write about. Others I can write about and they become corny. But even corny is okay now--it reminds me of yellow, lovely and bright:
My apartment is clean and easy to clean and I don't have to live with anyone I don't like...or their dirt
I am getting better at my job
I drink a good four, five cups of coffee a day and I don't care what anyone says it is not bad for me
I found a good language exchange partner, even if our schedules have too much conflict to meet enough
I read "Something I've been meaning to tell you" and "Images" by Alice Munro
I read The Namesake by Jhumpa Lahiri
I have a blog that no one much reads but it gives me great delight
I listen to Shakira or Sly and the Family Stone in the morning and can sing and dance all I want
I have lovely, colorful doodads in my apartment
I have children who are happy to see me
I have adult students who are happy to see me, even if a couple or so creep me out a tad
I live in a country with delicious rice and wonderful restaurants
I teach children in a suit and manage to not look shabby at the end of the day
I am connected to worlds far beyond me via the internet
I see wonderful experiments in fashion on a daily basis
The neon, many tiered cityscapes of Shinjuku are only a short train ride away
I pretty much do what I want when I want in my free time
I have no homework
I don't have to listen to other people's opinions on literature
There are people I like to meet to go out with after work on Saturday, even if everyone is far from each other and this city has a draconian last train schedule
It's not even that cold!!!!!
5 comments:
Arroz?? Qdo foi que vc começou a gostar de arroz???
Eu sempre leio o seu blog- a mae nao conta ne??
Hoje e o niver do seu pai
Dear Mae,
I know that you read my blog and it is much appreciated. I love rice! I love Japanese rice and I might like your rice too if you didn't insist on buying the undelicious kind and cooking it too long ;)~ And I have loved arroz e feijao for a long time remember?
sophie! that is not nice, dont i count? ria reads it too, she always loves what you say. but she does it all in one day and catches up on lots of things. i like the yellow. did you like the namesake? i read it, and thought i enjoyed it, kinda, but i read it while ria was telling me how much she hates lahiri...i guess it colored my opinion or i was sick of hearing ria rave about it. but i think i hated it. and munro? do you like her? i have one of her books, but i havent had the time to read it yet. i like your eye, and thank you so much for the help!
(btw i got into brown again, but please keep your fingers crossed for harvard. its kind of sad, its not that i even want to go there so badly, but i INSIST on being in a program where i can continue with fr, it, span, and now portu)
xo alani
heya sophie, yes for once alani is right and i too read your blog, although yep i love having a lot to read so i save it up until it's been a few days to check it. happy tuesday :)
Thanks for the reader comments. Much appreciated and of course I was just going fishing ;)
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